Not sure what to title this one...

Well I feel like I'm doing really well! Food-wise, not so perfect, but I'm definitely getting more active.

Sunday night Andrew and I went and played tennis for an hour. We're hoping to make this a weekly ritual (I, actually, am hoping it can be more like 2-3 times a week). I also started walking a lot this week. Tuesday night, Drew and I walked 2 miles. Then last night I met with my lovely friend Sharla at a local school track and walked another 2 miles. And tonight I'll be walking ANOTHER 2 miles. Yay!

I'm hoping to start out with an easy 6-8 miles/week. Sadly, that'll probably be enough to help kick-start this weight-loss. Let's hope so!

I have a wedding in June I'm supposed to go to...... quite honestly I'm horrified at the thought of showing up and my close friend's wedding like this. I haven't seen her since about.... oh.... let's see.... 75 pounds ago? Yeah. Yikes. This is I think right about 8 weeks from now. So hopefully I can do enough in that amount of time to at least feel better about myself. (Although very few people feel confident when they're standing next to this girl. She's about the size of my right arm.)

Wish me luck!

A success! ..... I think.....

So I feel good today. I've had a lot more energy than usual, though I think that may be because I'm officially done being sick. (YES)

I did a pretty good job with my food today. The only thing I'm worried about is that I don't know if I ate enough.

Throughout the course of the day I consumed 2 rice cakes, 2 Tbsp of peanut butter (total.... that's a big change for me), 2 corn tortillas and probably 2oz of mozzarella cheese. I also had a small glass of chocolate milk and lots and lots of water!

So you can see my dilemma. Am I eating enough? I don't know. We'll see.

All in all I feel pretty good. I successfully cleared out all my cabinets and my fridge. I have virtually NO bad food, except a box of Pop Tarts and some unopened chips that I couldn't stand the idea of throwing away. But let me tell you, I can envision the pounds falling off my body every time I walk into the kitchen without reaching for those chips!!

I also woke up this morning with an overwhelming need to accomplish something. In the last few months, I've done very little for myself, my home, my husband. I've been bored, I've been bitchy, I've been messy. I've been A mess. But today I woke up feeling ready, truly ready, for this change. I've been feeling it coming on for a while, I just didn't want the responsibility of taking care of myself. I don't know why.

I've always wanted to be a "clean" person. An organized person. I'm not fooling anybody; I'm never going to be someone with all of my underwear neatly folded and stacked in my drawer, and I'm always going to have the wrong CDs in the wrong cases. But I am, someday, going to have a clean house on a daily basis. I won't have clutter laying everywhere, shoes that I trip over, dryer sheets strewn about the house. It's amazing how much all of those little things affect your overall mood.

So here's to me being (finally) a responsible, clean, healthy adult. :) CHEERS!

The photo that opened my eyes....

This is a photo of me from the week before my wedding. This is, give or take a couple, about 75 pounds ago. I was hot stuff. Now I can only say that I was hot, because this is what I look like now.

YEESH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I was in a wedding last summer. I did the hair and makeup for the bride, and then I got home and saw on my facebook that someone had tagged me in this photo. I thought, "yeah, right, that's not me.".............. It's me. Yikes.

Last September at an annual routine "lady doc" exam, my doctor performed a couple of blood tests. These blood tests confirmed that I have hypothyroidism. (For those of you who don't know, this basically mean my metabolism is shot.) So it's no wonder that I packed on 70+ pounds in merely 2 years.

I've been taking thyroid Rx for the last 6-7 months, and have not gained any more weight. This is a good thing, that my weight has stabilized, but I'd rather be losing..... so that's what this is about.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a skinny, self-centered maniac. I want to live a long life. I want to avoid illness and disease. I want to live to see grandchildren and great grandchildren. I want to have MY OWN children. Obesity definitely either hinders or helps along all of these things.

So help me. Hold me accountable. Pray for me, or whatever you do. It's time to turn this life around!

"The Pilot": Rules and Guidelines

This is a major commitment. I'm making an effort to turn my physical life around. I have a regular blog on which I talk about "meaningless nothings" (*snicker*), but this blog is purely to make myself be more honest... with.... myself.... ?
I'm not going to put what I had to eat today. It doesn't count (denial) because I'm starting tomorrow.
This is called "The Eat Clean Diet". It consists of eating fresh, "clean", unprocessed foods. It always consists of training your body to eat ever 2-3 hours. This keeps your metabolism up and running.
Here are the "good" foods.....

LEAN proteins- chicken, turkey, nuts, protein powders
Veggies
Fruits
Cheeses (with the exception of of yellow)
Clif Bars
Oatmeal
Brown/Wild rice
Rice cakes
Corn tortillas
Eggs
Yogurt
Water, water, and more water

I'm sure there are other things I can eat, I just can't remember them. :) Another rule is not eating ANY carbs (not even fruit) after 2pm.

Okay, I'm watching Biggest Loser, and I am SO going to do this!! Bring it on, bitches!!!!