Yeah, as you can see it's been a while since my last post. Mostly I'm ashamed at the horrid job I'm doing so far with this. And my husband informed me last night that he's lost SEVEN POUNDS. *sigh*
I don't know what my problem is. Every night when the day is finally coming to an end, I feel most motivated. This doesn't make sense to me. And I'm not going to act on it at 11:00 pm, either, because then my energy will be up and I won't be able to fall asleep.
I know I need to lose weight. I want Andrew and I to grow old together and see our grandchildren, and possibly even great-grandchildren. I know for a fact that won't happen if I carry-on this way.
I'd say it's hard, but that's just an excuse. I don't have anything to say that makes it better. I'm just lazy. I hate the way I look, I hate putting on double-digit clothes every day, I hate trying to cover up any lumps and rolls with more layers and then sweating to death. I hate that I can't wear a short-sleeved shirt anymore without seeing stretch marks, nor can I wear shorts for the same reason. It's like my whole body has given up. I really, truly hate it, and if I didn't have a husband who loves me so much, I know I'd be severely, probably clinically depressed at this point. As it is I feel a little depressed about it sometimes anyway. But what can I do? You say, "Don't give up, Hayley!" and "Just keep at it! It'll happen!" but I say, "Pshaw, easier said than done." It is. It's WAY easier to say I'll do it tomorrow, to say it'll get better with time, and it's easier to imagine myself wearing those cute, old "never-gonna-get-rid-of-'em clothes" than to actually put in the effort.
So I ask again: What. Do. I. Do.? God help me.
its time to get motivated lady! i know exactly how you feel. you just have to adopt a "no excuse" kind of attitude when it comes to this. i used to do the same thing...i would be like "i'll work out in the morning...i'll get up early and work out before work" then the alarm goes off and i think"I'll work out after work...i'm too tired." and round and round i'd go. same with food. "i'll 'restart' my diet tomorrow, i've already messed up today" excuses,excuses,excuses. no more! there are no excuses for me! i say all of this with love and a true understanding of how you feel. i also say this because we are trying to hold eachother accountable......and you can do it hayley....and once you start doing it and decide that there is no way that your stopping until your goal is met...it will become easier. i love you girl and i think youre beautiful.
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