It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life.....

Last night we had my mother-in-law come over to Munchkin-sit for a couple of hours.  I now realize how much we're striving to change our habits, because instead of going to Old Chicago (*drool*) and a movie, we went on a "gym date".  30 minutes of cardio followed by an AMAZING 60 minutes of strength-yoga.  I could literally feel the negativity leaving my mind and my pores (in the form of enormous sweat drops).

I took too many days off recently.  I did great last week until Friday, when an out-of-town friend came to visit and we were having way too much fun eating crap and hitting up the thriving metropolis of Boise to do any exercise or eat anything green.  I ended up not exercising Fri, Sat or Sun.  I did my couch to 10k on Monday, but no Jillian until Wednesday, so I went almost an entire week without her.  She tortured me for it though, don't you worry.

Last night when Andrew and I went to the gym we did our couch to 10k week 2 day 1.  I. Wanted. To. Die.  Not literally of course, but holy cow.   For a 240something lbs woman "sprint" (probably a light jog to most other people) for 90 seconds straight is not an easy feat.  It was painful.  I told my mom I almost turned into one of those blubbering women on The Biggest Loser.  It was SO hard, and such a GOOD reminder of why I'm doing it (and that I need new running shoes.)  It's hard because of the life I've lived the last several (several x several) years.  A life of eating entire pints of Haagen Dazs in one sitting.  A life of going weeks at a time of sitting on the couch.  A life of self-pity and poor excuses.  Yet here I am, trying to turn it around.

I realized yesterday this is the first time I've really taken this into my own hands.  Since losing weight and changing things 4 years ago with a very involved personal trainer, I haven't really "tried" on my own.  The task of taking responsibility for myself has been too daunting, too overwhelming, too easy to ignore.  But I finally feel like I'm getting it.  Like I'm on my way to fantastic things.  *Pats self on back*

I'm really excited to weigh and do my measurements on Monday.  I don't even know if anything will be that different.  I feel different, in my mind.  And I'm feelin' gooooood.....